Crazy Gabe’s Crazy Texts
So, Gabriel is CRAZY. I ended our relationship this week. He feels I got scared and jumped out of the relationship. I felt that his jealousy and needy/attention issues were more than I could handle and determined that it was best to just end it. I did not attack him any way (in fact, my note to him is below….yes, I emailed him because I was in so much pain from not being able to pee that I just didn’t want to deal with him anymore). What followed, and I’ve deleted a lot of them, has been a psychotic episode. Come along on this journey….of Crazy Gabe, as he will now forever be called!
“Gabriel – I think what is needed right now is to stop while we’re ahead. Neither of us can change our personalities or who we are – nor should we expect the other person to. We are both about to become very, very busy and I don’t want either of us to lose focus of what we really need to do in our lives.
I’m not sitting here with any animosity – I think we found ourselves in a whirlwind moment/opportunity and grabbed on with both hands, which is great, but now the bigger pieces are falling, just not into the places as we both would have hoped.
I would hope that once the heart heals, a friendship could ensue but I also know that men have a hard time overcoming and separating those emotions from those of friendship. You are an incredible guy – I know you are going to be tremendously successful in all you do – I truly have enjoyed and valued the time I have spent with you. When I said I loved you, I meant it – I do care about you and want all the best for you – but I don’t think I’m in love with you the way you need me to be. ”
I thought was very kind and thoughtful of me. Especially considering the fact that my hoo-hoo was on fire and I couldn’t pee.
Well then all hell broke loose………
Needless to say, again, I did not respond to his insanely numerous messages for the rest of that day, nor going into Tuesday. I got a few more emails describing that I got scared, he has no issues, I was wrong to end it, etc… I did not respond. Why? BECAUSE I WAS IN THE EMERGENCY ROOM GETTING CATHETERIZED. But that didn’t stop the text messages!!!
I deleted a shit ton of them and then thought I should hang on to them in case I needed material. Well, I’d say that saying that I deserved to be thrown off the porch by my ex-boyfriend and abused by him justifies my putting Crazy Gabe’s Crazy Texts online.
“I truly hate you. Not the emotions speaking, it’s rational logic. You’re an insecure, ruthless, deceitful, manipulative, hateful, heartless, lying bitch! Aside from the droves of drunken washouts you’re used to taking home…this time, go fuck yourself! Now there’s something I’m sure even you can understand.”
No response sent to him. 2 hours later:
After describing how heartless I am and how wrong this was, he continues the series of text messages to say “by the way, you are one of the most wonderful things to happen to me in a long time. You’re a very special girl and I had an absolutely fantastic journey. There’ll always be a place for you in my heart. You’re amazing, Amanda! This is how I’m choosing to remember you!”
No response – why? Because I was waiting to get a tube shoved up my hole so my bladder could finally be drained after not being able to pee for 24 hours. And because I’m typically not in the habit of responding to crazy people.
I am then sent home with my catheter still inside me. Fun afternoon. As I am drifting off to sleep, he calls me. Twice. I do not respond. I wake up this morning and text him to say “After all the mean, viscous, unfounded bullshit you spewed yesterday, why would you call me and expect me to answer? Goodbye Gabriel.”
He admits he went nuts and called to apologize for the things he said. He was very hurt and said them out of anger. I don’t respond. Then he starts again:
“…our fear caused those stupid tiffs [fights] we had…” ummm actually, it had nothing to do with any fear on our part. We had three big arguments – one over him not listening when I explained an evening’s plans and thus him pouting because he misunderstood, another over the bra color on Facebook and the last for sitting next to my ex-boyfriend’s current girlfriend in a bar. I choose not to respond.
“The text I sent you yesterday about how I’ll remember us is honest. You’re an incredible woman. I didn’t mean those hateful things. I apologize.”
I do not respond. Because by now, I am in the process of pulling out my catheter and praying to God that I can pee on my own, just like a big girl! I have success! I proceed to get a shower and do some work for, you know, MY JOB.
He calls me at 6:00 pm while I am at the store, buying parsley to make a special tea so my hoo-hoo will heal. I do not answer. I text him and ask him to please leave me alone, it’s over and done with. I have received 39 texts from him. It’s 8:00 right now. *sigh*
So where were we? Oh yes – I had asked him to leave me alone. To which, rather than leave me alone, he responds as such:
“Understood! Unfortunately, you are such a liar! You are incapable of loving someone. You’re a complete bitch. You definitely are fucked up and will never find anything tangible. You are broken and love being so broken. I look forward to you remaining unfixable because you are so completely fucked up that no decent guy would ever subject himself to your hatred of men!”
Let’s pause for a moment. I have YET to attack Gabriel or call him ANY names. I have not psycho-analyzed his need for attention because he clearly had a fucked up childhood, has issues with his being adopted, unsure of his ethnicity, issues with his oddly-managed relationships with his parents, I think has a brother he mentioned in passing once? Nope – I haven’t touched any of it. Why? Because I don’t care. That’s his life. I don’t have to live with him – thank God. If you were to ask any of my friends or family members, they would describe my intense capacity to love, to nurture and just how UNBROKEN I am – in fact, even my fucking shrink would agree with me, because he helped heal me. Jesus. Ok – so here’s more…
“You’re impossibly bitchy! Best of luck with your shit love life. Nobody wants an unappreciative cunt! Thanks for absolutely nothing.”
“Maybe you’re a whore and that’s why you were beaten so mercilessly.I hope you continue to find nothing but your online retards cuz let’s be honest….A BITCH LIKE YOU? You’re a fucking joke….”
“Fuck you bitch! There’s some familiar territory for you!”
“You’re a bitch! This is a confession, nothing else!”
“I always love you but unfortunately I will always hate you at the same time.”
“On a scale of 1 to 10, you’re a 10 in my opinion! You are choosing to be a ruthless tyrannical bitch!”
“You do owe me a phone call!” [repeat this tirade or some variation of it for about 15 test messages]
Now why in the hell would I call this guy after all of this shit?!?!
I have received about 15 more text messages and one email regarding calling him. Who in their right mind (oh wait, I’m psychotic so maybe he thinks I would actually call him) would want to call someone who has sent at least 150 text messages in 48 hours berating me? Because he hasn’t dished out enough verbal abuse, let me call him for more?!
So this is me – signing off and closing the chapter, quite happily, on Crazy Gabe. Who is STILL sending text messages. Ok one more thing….
I got this one at 9:45 last night “Last message….Fuck You Bitch!”
“You have two bachelor’s degrees and a master’s degree! You own your own home and your self-made! Who wouldn’t want you?!! Until you start to give yourself some credit, you’ll never understand your true nature. You’re super fantastic as far as I’m concerned!”
Awww that’s superdy-duper. Jesus. A few hours ago, I was a cunt, now I’m super fantastic.
“Stop sending mean texts…” WHAT? I’m the chick who’s been berated for the last three days and I’m sending HIM mean texts? I’ve sent him texts asking him to leave me alone – and telling him he’s crazy. I’d say one text for every 30 or 40 of his.
“Instead of conveying to your friends that I’m so crazy, maybe I’m just in love.” [No, I think you’re crazy at this point].
“You don’t have the first clue as to what it takes to have a successful relationship.” [Really dude? I’ve been married and have had two long-term relationships since then – you, on the other hand, haven’t “been in love” since you were like 20….but I’m the one who’s clueless on relationships…]
“I don’t have issues, Amanda, you do!” [HAHAHAHAHA! That’s why you’ve been harassing me for three days with texts and emails that range from I love you to I hate you to let me help you heal your obviously damaged psyche? Christ.]
“I guarantee that you will reject love in every shape, form and fashion if you continue to blatently (sic) and blindly hate men as you do.”
“You cannot hate and love. That’s the jist of it. I feel sorry for you, Amanda. Fuck, man, you will just never get it!”
Let’s take a vote – who sounds crazy here – me or 37 year old Gabe who clearly does NOT handle rejection well at all? May he leave me alone for all eternity because I really don’t need his insanity in my life.
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Ok Jeff – Look. This is the last of your “comments” that I am approving because my blog is not a forum for a Gabe Defense.
You would contact Gabe repeatedly in an evening, while interacting with a girl, yet you say you have confidence?
Love is not irrational, love has a purpose. Whatever happened between me and Gabriel is now long lost in a tirade of text messages and emails from a delusional, unhinged man who steps up onto his soap box to preach about how invincible and positive he is, yet when someone breaks up with him because he is irrational and needy, he becomes evangelical in verbally abusing the woman who ended the relationship, acting like a child with his incessant text messages and emails and won’t just leave me the fuck alone.
Regardless of what Gabe has told you, I did not get scared. Of what? A man with no job, no home to call his own? A 37-year old man who’d made his life as a waiter and kitchen help, just waiting for all his positive thinking to pay off in the end? A man who wants to be taken seriously yet won’t button up his shirt, cut off his 4-inch pony tail and straighten up for appearances’ sake so he can become a professional entrepreneur? No, he’d rather look and sound like a pimp, “man.” Don’t even get me started on his family relationships that are at best dysfunctional and at worst, insane.
I am not old and as such bitter at the opposite sex. I love men. I love men for many, many reasons. I will continue to look for the one partner who is a great fit for me and will be a great fit for my family and won’t have emotional baggage going back 20 years that he hasn’t dealt with.
Goodbye, Goodluck, stop following Gabe around like a puppy dog because you’re taking “relationship” and “love” advice from a man who’s never been married, engaged or even had a healthy long-term relationship. Think about it.
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Why such hate though your answers can't you just talk a like a person. NO need to get so hateful come on……No gab didn't tell me anything to say that's all me and yes i do have confidence. I am just an old fashion kind of guy. I don't need anyone to tell me what to say. Like i said before love makes us do things we never though we would do. Sometimes they make us run shitless for them other person b/c we are just to "scared"…….The whole age thing it's just a number come on anyone can get old. Sometimes we can get old and bitter at the other sex b/c we just thing they are all like that….isn't that right or am I wrong?
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Love it's a scary thing. It makes you even a little crazy I know. It's hard to it's over when that person keeps on telling you "I love you" to me those words mean nothing but if you show it then they do mean something. When you love someone you say a lot of things you don't mean when the person just dumps you……it's hard to deal with. it's not easy I want to believe in love but it's hard to now days…..What happen to it does sex just get in the way I think so…..me sex means nothing when you don't care about that person. but back to my point love it makes you do crazy thing. I guess you just have to be a little crazy to believe in a thing called love now….
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BULLSHIT Love is not the least bit scary when it is with the right person. I have had some screwy relationships in my life, but love was never scary – it was an adventure, it introduced new people in my life with whom I could not live without. Quit trying to fucking justify anything that Gabriel has said to me in the last week. My God – comparing this comment to your last one, it sounds like Gabe was right by your side, fucking coaching you. Sad. Learn how to have your own thoughts, Jeff. You’re a big boy – you don’t need to fight Gabe’s fights.
The only time love is scary is when you mistake it for a long line of bullshit streaming from the preacher’s mouth and as soon as you realize it’s bullshit, he goes off the deep end and calls you a cunt and tells you he loves you within a 12 hour period. Then it just makes you glad you got out when you did because who the hell knows what that nut job is capable of.
Lay off it Jeff – did you read the title of this post?? Did you read the post?? Stop trying to fight a lost battle for a guy 15 years your senior. You have more hope as a what, 23 year old? then Gabe does – at least you haven’t gone crazy yet – you just need some confidence.
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I told him I wasn’t comfortable seeing him – days of being called a cunt, then being told he loves me, then being called a bitch and everything in between makes a girl NOT want to see a man – and I explained that I would mail it to him. I was then told to “shove it up your ass.” As such, it is on my keychain to remind me to NEVER fall for such a fucking lunatic ever again. He can launch into his soap-box, know-it-all rehetoric all he wants – bottom line is, he doesn’t have one healthy, long-term relationship to back up all his advice that he dishes out to you and anyone else who will listen. Rather than act like a man – and this is the same guy who purposely started a fight out of NOTHING just to SEE if I would end it two weeks prior to when I did (ask him about that and see if he confesses), he acts like a 14 year old child when I finally do end it. Give me a break. He’s jumped off the deep end. It could have been kept nice and cordial AND I even told a girlfriend that I was NOT going to blog about all of this…however, call me a cunt and it’s all over, gloves are off.
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then why can't you give back the ring that he has asked for
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WOW! That was totally fucked up SJ! He absolutely insane, he sounded like a teenager; "i love u", "wait, I hate you", "you r fantastic, "wait, you r a bitch!"
Who the hell does that? Certainly that behavior is not what you would expect from a 37y old guy, not even from a 20y old guy!
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sjtavo Reply:
January 26th, 2010 at 1:14 am
right??!?! this is me, embracing singlehood and running away from incessant name-calling!
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sjtavo Reply:
January 26th, 2010 at 1:14 am
right??!?! this is me, embracing singlehood and running away from incessant name-calling!
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